A reason to inquire
is what the soul doth desire

I smell that old smell again
that sleepy morning smell of the garden
soft, yet mysterious
sweet yet disturbing
That smell that makes you wanna run back to that place
and relive the moment!
The moment when everything But
the smell mattered!

12:24 A.M.
27-02-2006

ThuNder STOrm

clouds asunder,
rain a thunder,
monsoons dry harder in times of redress,
seasons die harder and memories offer less

1:09:31 A.M.
20-05-2006

The Talk 6: 17 P.M. 19th June 06

Its interesting that maulana Sahib should illustrate his examples using FRIENDS characters.
Reading is what i need to do
and its a little obvious that I dont want to continue living the way I am. I mean it is true that its comfortable, but life isnt about being comfortable, its about changing to understand, changing to submit yet struggling through out
its not about conforming is it?
actually this whole concept of conforming and submitting is grossly misunderstood, as i understand it
the fact is that once you understand the jist, these issues become non issues
but then there is the question: social conditioning han?
laikan then everything is social conditioning
even the way i question and what i question is social conditioning
also this brilliant logic that i came up with is totally screwed! Namely:
if u believe then you must go all the way and if you dont then morals should completely be terminated from ure life. but the latter doesnt really hold because morals let people live with each other...but if u do things in private toe whats the issue? so this is the question then; lets see what becomes of it...
oh oh: "...Consider the journey begun" - KA

This moment.

this life, and then the life hereafter
friends and reading scholarly works in the Muslim tradition
fun and intellectual drive
prayer and discussing people endlessly-fruitlessly
life and duty
duty and beauty..heh no..just got carried away
beauty and reason
reason and fantasy
fantasy and hope
need and comfort
inertia and dogma
dogma and uncertainty
love and dreams
dreams and fear
satisfaction and restlessness
peace and inability
roads and paths
ends of beginings