A Skeptic Optimist

I dont know why it happened,
I do know that i prayed
but happiness as i know it now seems clearer than ever
yet i wonder: perhaps it was all a mistake
maybe it was just an illusion
what if i wake up to discover,that all that happened is now over
that all my dreams have packed and left
and then i think, why dream? why bother?
it's never real, its all a hoax
But i know its beauty, i know its warmth
i know im just too wise to know it...

8th of december 2005